It's been a long weekend for me. My cousin Anna was in town from Germany this week. She did not send me an email to let me know she was coming and so I did not take time off work. I had lunch with her, my brothers, and my dad. I always thought she was prissy, now I've decided she's snotty too. She gave me one of those "fuck you" hugs goodbye both after lunch and when she was leaving for the airport Sunday. Oh well, she sux but her sister rocks. I took Saturday off work cause I've got a cold & sore throat but that didn't stop me from going out for Big J's B-day. That was not as interesting as Erics B-day but I had a good time. We just went to O'Malleys and to The Brick all of which are tame. Sunday I slept in and then went to visit Sara and to Little Daves to watch movies. So, a long but fairly uneventful weekend. Today was the first of the three days to create art projects for the gallery fund-raiser. I had a blast! I got to see a few of my favorite kids and get messy. I havent had that much fun in a while now, can't wait to do it again Wednesday.
So I spent time with Sara on Sunday night. I have not forgiven her, or forgotten that I cannot trust her with ANYTHING but that I have to play nice. Keep your enemies closer right? Also, I sent a message to Mike not to worry about the Elvis Costello tickets. I remembered that I had asked him about that before they rescheduled the show and he never got back to me. I am silly to believe when he says that he will call me back that he actually will. He said to me a few weeks ago that out friendship will take care of itself. I think that's happening now because it's stupid for me to try to keep a friend that I can't call at home, expect to call back, or hang out with EVER. I also don't need to feel like it's wrong for me to want to be able to see or call him without feeling some type of guilt. I've been in the "girlfriend" position which is why I understand that she would get upset if we were to see each other or if I were to call the house, but it's been ling enough and it's not right for me to be worried that my conversing with him will cause disruption in his life. So, I guess the friendship had taken care of itself, it has slowly disappeared over time of absence and inability to keep in close contact. It makes me really sad, deeply sad to lose such a great person in my life but it was his choice to lose our friendship and I guess that's what hurts most. I thought we were better friends than that, I would never allow anyone to choose who I can and cannot be friends with, and he had led me to believe that is what has happened to him but I think it's his choice and so I'm sad. I miss my friend Mike, the guy I could call and tell dumb stories to, or ask dork questions at all hours of the night when I was debating something with a date, or just to have that one friend who knew me better than I know myself and I don't get to have that anymore. Kinda wish we hadn't been a couple, cause then I might have been able to have my friend.